dulu salu pikir nape org happy smpai menangis...

dearlifeylife....

seriously,

pg td i was like so ready nak kene repeat osce(of course i didnt want it but... gtulah.. huhu~)

anyhow, sampai campus around 10++, result lom kuar, join dok kat kawan2 sambil borak2

few minutes later, dgr derap kasut para dosen turun dr meeting osce diorng

dada da berdebar2, berdetak2 kencang macam nak copot da jantung

then bile the result ditempek kat white board depan ruang KKD tu, sume pakat2 gi serbu

i have to admit i adelah termasuk lam kategori manusia AGAK ketot! ngan ketinggian 159cm, i tak mampu nak nampak result tu dr jarak 5lapis manusia dengan ketinggian around 10cm lebih dr i!

ms tu i kat bagian nama2 org yg akan repeat esok n lusa

spek tak bawak! so nampak blur2 je.. tp rasenye nama i takde!! ah i berputus asa!

maka lari kat senarai nama semua student yg amik osce kali ni with either 'LULUS' or 'TIDAK LULUS' di belakang nama setiap org

HAWA FATIHAH! mana HAWA FATIHAH CHE MAT SU?! ahha! dah jumpe! and instead of 2patah perkataan kat blakang nama i, cuma ade satu je??!! i was like......... sprahclos!

alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah... subhanallah... perkataan tu je yg terngiang2 kat kepala i....

persekitaran haru biru, satu sudut, org yg kene repeat dok termenung, ade yg peluk2 sambil nangis2. nak bayar rp350,000 utk repeat bukan lah sedikit... sngat bnyak! mmg sngat2 bnyak...

i carik sudut yg paling sunyi.. nak call mak! number dialed... after few ringings, mak angkat, oh, belah sana pun haru biru gak.... mak ckp die ade kat bilik audit tgh audit ape ntah...

"maak! awa da lulus...."

dgn nada kalut and energetic nye mak jawab "ape??? tak dengar!"

ah potong stim tol! "awa da lulus mak ujian tu!!"

"what? oh!! alhamdulillaaaahhhh", suara mak separuh menjerit...

lalu tumpah lah genangan air mata perkasa yg dr td cuba dipertahan kan sejak dr awal2 tgok result...

"awa da jd dokter mak! awa da jd dokter!!".. ah exaggerate! belom lagi snarnye! but 3/4 way tru, haha~

"alhamdulillahhh...", i know i made my mom happy today!

"jgn lupe telefon abah...", "ye mak"

the call ended...

then call abah.. then call KHAR..

well.. begitu lah kejadian pagi tadi. now tunggu 10/4, then i will receive my degree and later be called an S.Ked(sarjana Kedokteran). got the degree tp belum dpt the licence utk practice... yay!

sometimes, certain things, i really thought i dont deserve it all, but Allah Maha Pemurah.. and He gave me everything no matter what... alhamdulillah....