I am grateful... ‎​​​ ‎​اَلْحَمْدُلِلّه

Dear lifeylife...

I've been mengeluh too much...
Waking up at 4, taking a bus at 5 and later an angkot to the hosp every morning has tire me up a little bit.

Arriving the hosp around 6, running while shouting to own self, "I'm late! I'm late". Makin kuat perasaan nak mengeluh bile tgok pintu pagar depan hosp tak buka pun lg which forces me to lari ke pintu belakang hosp which makes me another 3 mins late.

Arrive at the labour room, sigh heavily the moment I saw few families waiting out side the labour room. It must be a tough night for my fellow colleagues who stayed back for the oncall last night. Silently I prayed that tonight will be a calm night for me(oncall night baybeh)..

I was slapped back into reality when my colleague told me that a patient will be brought up to the labour room later so she has to stay back at the labour room a little bit later before going up to do patients follow up. Hoyay! More patients for me(sarcastic)...

Oncall tonight, esok visite dgn dr E. Ade kemungkinan kne maki habis2an coz I heard he was in such in an ill tampered lately. 32 working hours stright is actually nothing. I am so grateful.

Xperlu lah nak mengeluh bnyk sngt awa... Ade org yg kerja dia lagi berat, risiko lagi besar dan dpt gaji xberbaloi pun nak bandingkan dengan kita. Kutip sampah, lombong arang batu, cuci baju rumah jiran, sapu pasir kt jalanan dan macam2 jenis pekerjaan lagi yg xterfikir oleh otak cetek ni. Kalau kita asek mengeluh je bermaksud kita xbersyukur. Whining won't makes everything bare able. Smiling and being grateful makes everything seems light and easy.

اِ نْ شَآ ءَ اللّهُ

I'm so sorry, but you are still young...

Dear lifeylife...

A young girl, came to the obs-gyn clinic, complaining of having vaginal bleeding and was really concern of her 14-week-old-first-pregnancy. I sent her to the gyn chair, checked where were the bleeding from and confirmed it came from the little opening of the cervix. "It might be a miss-carriage", I told her, and I could see her blank eyes went watery and filled with sadness. "But let's just confirm it with a transvaginal USG, ok?", somehow, I felt a rush of guilty feeling filled my empty heart when I saw a little hope in her smile when she nodded her head.

Moments later, her turn for the USG came. She eagerly stole a glance at the monitor in every little opportunity she had, hoping to see her little baby move, but immediately she was sent to a very great despair when we confirmed the miss-carriage.

I patted her forearm, "you are still very young, don't be sad, there will be another one soon, don't worry", and then explained to her that we need to do a curretage to make sure the bleeding stops.

Truthfully, I know, every time I said "it's going to be ok", it will not change much, coz she had lost her baby she hoped for. It is sad u know, the one who really wants a baby, ended up having a miss-carriage, but the one who didn't, gave birth to a very healthy baby and ended up leaving the baby near a dustbin. Life is so unfair...

Cincins...

Dear lifeylife...

Pernahkah anda mmberus pakaian yg sedang anda pakai?
Ye, saya baru melakukah hal tersebut, tahniah buat saya.
Itu lah akibatnya kalo ade air ketuban merecik secara berleluasa pada satu2nya seluar oncall yg dibawa ke hospital.
Survival rate: boleyla.

Td saya jd assistant time c-sect. Dan melakukan pemotongan fallopian tube. Saya ketagih.

Ps: gambar mmg takde kene mengena dengan cerita. Sekian.

of v-jay-jays and uteruses ;p

dear lifeylife...

salam...
life at the OBGYN department is surely hectic as i thought it would be
there are 6 people in our group and everyday, 2 of us have to stay back at the hospital for oncall
that means we have to do oncall every two nights.

oncall night*labor room, wards, operation theater(OT), ER and whatnots*
postcall night*exhausted-sleep early*
precall night*stress-sleep early* ;p
oncall night*ctrl+c then ctrl+v*

last week was my OT's week
so i spent most of my time in the OT
mostly for C-sects and curettes and other laparatomy operations for gynee patients
nothing much basically because it was my first OT rotation so i just help with the patient's pre-op preparation, paper works and helping with the baby

caesarean section

curette@curettage

the most i could do was being an assistant during the curette which was no fun at all
cant wait for my next OT rotation where i'll be able to be the 1st assistant during a c-sect
*dah lama tak menjahit weehoo!!!*gian*

this week i was assigned to be at the labor room
meaning more and more vagina touche, episiotomy+sew it back and of course being as supportive as we could be in time of leading tired-helpless-desperate mommies undergoing their pain during the harsh stages of labor.

vaginal touche@pelvic examination

episiotomy

err... messy messy work i tell u
but at the end, listening to the first cry of a new-born baby on his/her effort to inhale as much oxygen as he/she could to make sure the lungs inflate well for the blood to enter the lungs for the first time and start the complete blood circulation, see the blueish face turned pink and see he/she actively moves his/her limbs for the first time, surely make every thing worth it all!*manly-tears* ;p

err.. dah *lewat?* malam and tonight is my precall nite
stress oh stress
tido sekarang!
nitey nite nite!
hahhaha~
roger and out!

Hawa Annur

Happy 7th birthday my dearest sweetest cutest comelest and greatest adik bongsu...

Kak long doakan A'an akan menjadi orang yang berjaya dunia akhirat.

Dah2. A'an g cium mak and abah say thank you sbb beranakkan A'an cpat!

Hijab

Dear lifeylife...

When Nobel laureate Tawakul Karman was asked about her Hijab by Journalists and how it is not proportionate with her level of intellect and education, she replied:

"Man in the early times was almost naked, and as his intellect evolved he started wearing clothes. What I am today and what I'm wearing represents the highest level of thought and civilization that man has achieved, and is not regressive. It's the removal of clothes again that is regressive back to ancient times"

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Kembali ke alam nyata

Dear lifeylife...

Setelah sekian lama bercuti berhuha2, maka kite kembali ke alam nyata (read: Jakarta)
Isnin start last major cycle; Obstetric and Gynaecology.

Alahaii.. Best nye dok rumah with adik2. Sebest apam comel gebu yg enak buatan kak long. Ngeh3~

Bkak purse tetibe jumpe note daripada si kenit A'an. Alahai adikku, comel nye kamu.

Sigh... Homesick kejap... Kejap je, tak boleh lama2... ;(