Wednesday, March 3, 2010

dulu salu pikir nape org happy smpai menangis...

dearlifeylife....

seriously,
pg td i was like so ready nak kene repeat osce(of course i didnt want it but... gtulah.. huhu~)
anyhow, sampai campus around 10++, result lom kuar, join dok kat kawan2 sambil borak2
few minutes later, dgr derap kasut para dosen turun dr meeting osce diorng
dada da berdebar2, berdetak2 kencang macam nak copot da jantung
then bile the result ditempek kat white board depan ruang KKD tu, sume pakat2 gi serbu
i have to admit i adelah termasuk lam kategori manusia AGAK ketot! ngan ketinggian 159cm, i tak mampu nak nampak result tu dr jarak 5lapis manusia dengan ketinggian around 10cm lebih dr i!
ms tu i kat bagian nama2 org yg akan repeat esok n lusa
spek tak bawak! so nampak blur2 je.. tp rasenye nama i takde!! ah i berputus asa!
maka lari kat senarai nama semua student yg amik osce kali ni with either 'LULUS' or 'TIDAK LULUS' di belakang nama setiap org

HAWA FATIHAH! mana HAWA FATIHAH CHE MAT SU?! ahha! dah jumpe! and instead of 2patah perkataan kat blakang nama i, cuma ade satu je??!! i was like......... sprahclos!
alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah... subhanallah... perkataan tu je yg terngiang2 kat kepala i....

persekitaran haru biru, satu sudut, org yg kene repeat dok termenung, ade yg peluk2 sambil nangis2. nak bayar rp350,000 utk repeat bukan lah sedikit... sngat bnyak! mmg sngat2 bnyak...

i carik sudut yg paling sunyi.. nak call mak! number dialed... after few ringings, mak angkat, oh, belah sana pun haru biru gak.... mak ckp die ade kat bilik audit tgh audit ape ntah...

"maak! awa da lulus...."
dgn nada kalut and energetic nye mak jawab "ape??? tak dengar!"
ah potong stim tol! "awa da lulus mak ujian tu!!"
"what? oh!! alhamdulillaaaahhhh", suara mak separuh menjerit...
lalu tumpah lah genangan air mata perkasa yg dr td cuba dipertahan kan sejak dr awal2 tgok result...
"awa da jd dokter mak! awa da jd dokter!!".. ah exaggerate! belom lagi snarnye! but 3/4 way tru, haha~
"alhamdulillahhh...", i know i made my mom happy today!
"jgn lupe telefon abah...", "ye mak"
the call ended...

then call abah.. then call KHAR..

well.. begitu lah kejadian pagi tadi. now tunggu 10/4, then i will receive my degree and later be called an S.Ked(sarjana Kedokteran). got the degree tp belum dpt the licence utk practice... yay!



sometimes, certain things, i really thought i dont deserve it all, but Allah Maha Pemurah.. and He gave me everything no matter what... alhamdulillah....

18 comments:

mUnie UncLe hUsin said...

congrats dear...
hee~

Ct Nurh0ney said...

tahniah awa! ^____^ Berusaha!

**BabbleY LifE** said...

DR HAWA!!!
congrates2!!happy 4 u...
dh yakin sket ahh nk bt appointmnet ngn u lpsni..hehe

am_am_am said...

eyt, congrats~! happy for u~!!

;)

Hawa CMS said...

hehehhe~
thnx a lot people
thnx for all the prayers
i am one step closer!
yey!

ila ni said...

WAHHHHH DOKTOR HAWA cms!!!

tahniah! gilak ah, ila ado dgr crito jgk akan kepayahn tahap 9 exam goni, tahniah2! cayalah awa...!

BURDHANI said...

tahniah awa! happy for u..=)

Hawa CMS said...

ila: alhamdulillah! mmg susah gak la. sbb tu mcm ready je nak repeat, tp subhanallah alhamdulillah. dats y menangis mcm org gile pas tau result tu. sbb group awa semua 10org, and 2org je lulus. awa n dak indo sorng. yg 8org lain sume failed. skeri gile. alhamdulillah, tak putus2 syukur...

thnx ila, aja... terima kasih atas semua doanye...

Ahmad Fadli said...

ألف مبروك...الله يسهّل امورك
alhamdulillah sgala pujian bagi Allah atas segalanya..
slmt berkhidmat utk anak bangsa..

Hawa CMS said...

hehe~
alhamdulillah
smpai skng pun still mcm takle pcaya
anyhow, belum boleh balik berkhidmat utk anak bangsa kat mlysia lagi sbb kene internship kat sini dulu
wish me luck!

{ yaya } said...

awa...
Alhamdulillah
may more happy things shower u after this...
so happy for u....
yeay 4 hawa!!!
opps! Dr. Hawa i mean

Hawa CMS said...

hehehe~
thnx dear

Anonymous said...

congrats ya Dr Hawa!!

Hawa CMS said...

tq anonymous

Rashidah said...

:-)..tahniah awa..akhirnya..dngn susah payah dulu nak jejak kaki ke sana..ingat lagi..huuu..n dah smpai stage skrg..rasa nak tumpang nangis sama pon ada..awa skrg dah xmcm dlu..awa skrg dah jadi dr hawa..tahniah again..

Hawa CMS said...

thnx shidah!
awa masih awa yg dulu
ngeh2~
jom nanges sama2!

adreYna said...

waaahhhh cik awe..rs cam nak nanges jer bce post nihh...opss..terlebey sudahh..

msti heppy kan dh dpt jd DR hawa fatihah...pepun congratez dear~heppy2

Hawa CMS said...

hahahha
jgn nanges! nnt xcomel da
of coz happy!
thx