Friday, November 27, 2009

never to give up life...

dear lifeylife....

as crappy as life could be, there must be someone out there worst than us,
it's not about to change everything into perfection
but to live the imperfect life perfectly
to love the imperfect people perfectly
and to survive an imperfect situation perfectly
never to give up coz that is the worst decision ever made on planet earth

::selamat eid adha semua::


D'Masiv - Jangan Menyerah

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cobaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi

Reff 1:
Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah anugerah
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Reff 2:
Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya
Bagi hambanya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal Putus asa

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

APGAR score

dear lifeylife...

org tua2 selalu berpesan,
jgn ketawa kuat sngat nnt akhirnye menangis.

but in APGAR score, crying is always good!

English Appearance (skin color), Pulse (heart rate), Grimace (reflex irritability),Activity (muscle tone), and Respiration.
German (Atmung, Puls, Grundtonus, Aussehen, Reflexe),
Spanish (Apariencia, Pulso, Gesticulación, Actividad, Respiración)
French (Apparence, Pouls, Grimace, Activité,Respiration)


::air mata, silalah cepat kering::

Monday, November 23, 2009

good byes and hellos...

dear lifeylife....

so,
bye2 my beloved precious weekends and hello my restless weekdays....
bye2 sexy PJ and hello boring white coats...
bye2 cozy2 room and hello stinky labs...

gud nite people!
go to sleep coz it's going to be a GREAT day tomorrow despite anything that might come our way!
be strong and survive!
yay!

::bad dreams, bad dreams go away, good dreams, good dreams, here to stay::
::bad dreams, bad dreams go away, good dreams, good dreams, here to stay::
::bad dreams, bad dreams go away, good dreams, good dreams, here to stay::
~u have to do it 3 times for it t work~

Saturday, November 14, 2009

kawan2 jgn tak tdo b4 exam ok?

dear lifeylife....

yay! dah lepas surgery and pharmacy!!!
oyeh2!
semoga lulus dengan warna yg berterbangan
amin!

scalpel holder and blades
my minor set
okes,
2 weeks in surgery mmg sngat stressfull la
i dont know why
must be bcoz of the the lecturer doctor sorang tu yg muka masam cetung almost all the time
dah la almost setiap hari ade pre-test then followed by post-test sebelum test sebenar
hari test sebenar tu which was last wednesday, the night before, i hit the bed so late and terkebil2 tak bleh tido coz stress yg amat dgn surgery
i think i went to the lala land just right b4 subuh masuk kot
after subuh tu i thought lets rest at the lala land just for a little while more sbb sngat penat
n mase tu baru 5am and the exam willl start at 8am
so pk i had at least 2 hours more to let my brain rest
but God Gracious the next thing i know was i terbagun dgn terpinga2 caused by the in-calling call from my group mate asking me where was i and the lect were asking us in already!
it was almost 8.10am and i wasnt even had my morning bath yet!
masa tu, rasa nak koma dah! and the panic attack were worsening the situation..
the heart was running and pounding very hard, the stomach was getting very2 upset, the head was being dizzy and mula rasa terawang2, tangan dah started to be shaky and trembling, the palm started to sweat very heavily, the whole body terasa sejuk dingin.... ah it was not a very nice feeling i had! not nice at all! senang kata it was awful!
tp kemudian by the time i smpai kat campus, my group mate kata td die panggil just sbb nak undi turn exam and turn i adelah no.9 out of 10 group mates i sume tu...
and i gave out a very loooongg greatful sigh...
gosh takmo la jadi mcm tu! teruk2 sant teruk! takmo ag dah!

ok tunggu punya tunggu
smpai lah turn i
masuk, stright ke exam tindakan
biasa nye anamnesis and physical examination dulu
tp my other colleague was doing his anamnesis and physical examination with another lecturer doctor
me, cabut undi case dulu
oyeh! dapat needle thoracocentesis! kind of senang la actually so proceed la ngan amik alat2 nye sume and get ready
then the lecturer doctor came and told me to start the procedure
yada yada yada..... then tibe part anesthetic injection
tibe2 die tnye i how to kire dose die
deng! i really forgot how nak kira
i tau satu ampul yg i pakai tu ade lidocain 2% 2ml
and i mmg tau how to kira sume tu and even if die nak i dilute the lidocain tu pun i know how
but my pengiraan mmg jenis nak cepat so i really dont mind the details cara kira sume
n she wanted me to explain that of all other thing?! so ape ag, i sambung la panic attack i tu kat depan doctor plak!
hahahha~
it was funny pk2 balik, naseb dpt doctor yg baek ati n tolong ingatkan i! if dpt doktor yg tak berapa nak baek tu how? mau nages ek?
ok to make the long story short, maka berakhirlah surgery
then belum ilang penat n stress, trus masuk pharmacy(the next day of course)
fast-and-furious-pharmacy
hehe~
well takpe la
dah lepas sume tu
da lulus da pun surgery
just nak tunggu result pharmacy ajek lagi
**surgery adelah menarek! jom kite jadik Surgeon lah jom!!**
**tp bagaimana ngan cita2 nak Gyne??**

to celebrate berakhirnye surgery aritu, nining and i went to Roxy Sq to have lunch together and end up buying ourselves some CDs utk dinikmati pada hujung minggu yg sngat berharga tersebut...
i bought Grey's Anatomy season 5
lama gile da meninggalkan Grey's Anatomy ni
well as i remembered season yg lepas2, takde plak i nanges2 nengok cerita tersebut
tp this season? y o y? have i gone soft???
so macam mane nak jd surgeon ni kalo soft2 mcm ni? cannot oh cannot!
however, looking at a human being, talking to him and end up he, dying in ur hands(literally) and u cant do anything to help but to let him die easily and with less pain will never be easy! never going to be! am i dat strong to handle that???

Meredith Grey::
"Doctors live in a world of constant progress and forward motion. Stand still for a second, and you'll be left behind. But as hard as we try to move forward, as tempting as it is to never look back, the past always comes back to bite us in the ass. And as history shows us again and again, those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it."

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

asek takde letrik je! masak rendang ah jom!

dear lifeylife....

ah nak update blog juge walau besok ade final surgery!
konon nye nak meluahkan ketidak-puas-hatian yg melanda sbb lately jakarta selalu ade gangguan bekalan elektrik
oh siksa oh siksa gile sbb sini sngat panas and pengap la oh oh oh
xsanggup nak menanggung tetesan2 peluh yg dah macam gerimis mengundang tersebut

last time takde elektrik i made up my mind utk turun dapur memasak rendang daging+paru
teeeeeettt!!! wrong decision deng deng deng!! panas gile menyesal memulakan aktiviti memasak rendang smpai rs mcm nak mmbiarkan rendang hangit di kuali sahaja lagaknye
tp dgn kesungguhan dan kelaparan yg membuak2, kusiapkan juga rendang yg xseberapa sbb xde kerisik tu yg kemudiannye dimakan dgn instant roti canai(bwk dr mlysia terchenta) di balcony sbb tak sanggup masuk bilik panas gile!



setelah kejadian takde letrik smpai memasak rendang, ade plak kejadian takde letrik pagi buta kol 130am++ smpai xleh tdo sbb mcm dok dlm sauna hebatnye!!
pastu td ptg balik kelas kepanasan pun xde letrik lagi!
oh pakcik letrik indonesia, tolong lah repair watever kerosakan yg ade tersebut dgn segera!!
xmampu da ni oi!

ok sile belajar sekarang kang esok tergagap2 waktu memegang patients mau memakan penampor patients lak kang sbb tak reti wat Rectal Toucher tu nnt! ataupun xjumpe carik lubang mase nak wat Catheterization mau menetes2 peluh xpayah tunggu xde letrik la ye! bagaimana pula kalau tersalah sental mase wound toilet ataupun tersalah jahit mase wound suture??

bye!
au revoir~

Thursday, November 5, 2009

thnx to aja!

dear lifeylife....

hari ini hari berblog belajar sedunia!


aduh bnyak nye nak kne cover
tiap2 hari exam best gile(ok i'm being sarcastic!)...

esok?: catheterization, benign prostatic hyperplasia, Ca prostat, gallstone(choleliths), urinary tract infection, dan termasuk tajuk2 yg da lepas2 malas da nak tules sbb terlalu bnyak! oyeh!!

ok sambung belajar!
bye!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

status seorang teman di FB

dear lifeylife.....

pasti ni kata2 lect dr kepada my friend tu
uh it's such a simple thing tp sngat deep
katanya:


"kamu tuh harus berterima kasih sama org2 miskin, krna mereka kamu bisa jadi dokter. smua pengalaman yg km dpt dari teori itu, dipraktekkan pada mereka. minta aja, 'pak, celananya d buka', langsung d buka. 'bu, pakaian nya d lepas', langsung d buka pakaiannya. lagi pula, km bisa MEMPRAKTEKKANNYA GRATIS LAGI"


so thnx semua sbb kasik saye belajar badan kalian...
terima kasih atas semua ilmu yg saye dpt dr badan kalian...
halal kan ilmu2 tu semua oke?

till then people
papai~