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dear lifeylife...

saye mahu mereka smpai di sini dengan kadar yg lebih segera!!!

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dear lifeylife....

kite mendapat award yg mcm xlayak jek utk diterima

terima kasik utk kak efa n yan for the awards

love u guys muah3~

thehehhe~

tp takmo jawab tag lah ek

kakakkaka~

tatau nak tules ape n nak tag sape coz mostly yg korng da tag tu my friends gak so lebih kurang sama la

thehehhe~

papai~

The Blind Side

dear lifeylife....

watched "The Blind Side" for the 2nd time with sukma just now. very heart-warming story i tell u. sile la tgok sape yg belum tgok! well, talking bout doing charity and the good things for others mcm Leigh Ann did, the night before, on the way back from CL, with Sukma and Aya, us girls, talking bout a lot of things, and one of the topic that brought up was on how Sukma and i had this same dream on being a charity navigator. and gosh i was so happy to have someone that have the same 'angan-angan' like mine.

back in the days, when i was young, i mean as young as i can remember, five maybe six, it was hari raya i guess, coz i remember receiving so much duit raya from the adults. i was following my parents pergi beraya kot, it must be one of abah's bau2 bacang pnye relative, and she was very old, and the house was obviously not like mine, and the food she served for us was like almost nothing, and it was hari raya and she was, to my eyes, not wearing the supposedly baju raya and all lah. so i was so sedih. and when my mak and abah bid good byes and all, and called me to salam her, i hold my duit raya(not all of it la obviously) in my hand, and just salam that old lady, and gave her the money, and quickly ran to the car. back then, i really dont know what it was meant, but it just seems to be the right thing to do...

and just few years back, during the interview for the scholarship, the man who interviewed me, sit there and looked me right in the eyes and asked me, what do i want to do actually in my life, and for God Gracious' sake, i really dont know why, my eyes went blurry!! oh yeah people! i cried during my interview! as humiliating as it was to cry during the interview, i put myself in such a difficult situation to just explain to him that i wanted to make a change, to make a difference, to help the one in needs. sometimes, something are just too hard to be put into words and just meant to be kept inside aite?

berbalik kepada what sukma and i were talking bout in the taxi, we were like, 'owh, kite kan ramai kawan2 doctors sume kan, we can just simply recruit them on helping out a little bit here and there kan?', well the truth is, kawan2 kite sume, ade engineers, ade pilots, ade doctors, ade architects, ade accountants, and mcm2 lagi jenis career yg we all know that eventually we will all live dengan kecukupan, even kelebihan. and giving out a little bit wont hurt kankankan?

so ayuh lah kawan2, kite bersama2 tanamkan semangat untuk memberi!

Hanya Allah...

dear lifeylife....

mnggu lepas starting isnin, kanak2 skolah menengah kat sini kelam kabut berexam Ujian Nasional

tu lebih kurang sama ngan SPM kita.

and hari sebelum tu, kat TV, they were showing persediaan kanak2 skolah tu utk menghadapi their big important exam

hal2 yang biasa kite buat masa SPM dulu seperti study group, stay up, solat hajat and for the hindus, g candi utk doa kat diorng nye god, and macam2 lagi la.

what caught my eyes baru2 ni, bila masuk lam berita, kanak2 skolah ni membanjiri makam Gus Dur utk 'berdoa' because it's a 'makam penuh berkah'???? and ade yg berpusu2 tolak menolak utk minum air suci yg dibaca oleh ntah sape ntah? Astaghfirullahaladzim. kenapa la kene amalkan hal2 syirik mcm tu?? siap masuk tv bagai ag. arent they ashamed of themselves? aneh la manusia ni....

here in indonesia, hal2 aneh mmg slalu diorng amalkan.

before this, pernah ade dalam tv, sorang anak kecik named Ponari, umo 7 tahun kot, kene sambar petir ke ape ntah, then after that, a stone(batu) followed him home, and akhirnye tb2 berpusu2 manusia(we are talking bout thousands of people) membanjiri kawasan rumah dat boy untuk disembuhkan penyakit. and let me tell u how they did it, the people yg datang to his house, berpusu2 menghampiri Ponari with a container of water, then Ponari will put his hand holding the stone into the container of water, and the water will be drank by those people, and it'll cure any diseases they have. how ridiculous is that? not to mention the stone itself is not clean and Ponari's hand also might not be cleaned as well. most importantly, how can a mere stone cure any disease?

call me a skeptical. but i just need Him. Allah yang Maha Esa..

sile jgn low self-esteem lagi dah!

dear lifeylife....

i have a very low self-esteem

until last tuesday,i still couldnt believe that i had passed my osce!

siyes!! tak caye ke?

i siap rasa i da salah tgok result la ape la

then i literally have to g campus ag skali to tgok the result

and kebetulan nak try jubah for the graduation day nnt

so utk mengelakkan rasa xpercaya diri tu dtg lagi and utk mengelakkan the urge utk g campus ag smata2 nak tgok result just to make sure i tol2 lulus, i amek gambar

so tiap kali the low self-esteem dtg ag, just simply tgok gambar je xpyh susah2 g campus rite?

btw,

my mom da belikan tiket flight for the whole family nak dtg jakarta nnt

i even da booked a room for them for rm360 for 4nights**boley tahan murah la kan?**

the plan is, aniem and lil' a'an will be sleeping with me kat my room

and adam, alip and mak abah will stay at the hotel

the room is kinda luas coz it's a suite so i guess xperlu la nak amik smpai 2 bilik rite?

and also da g kat studio tnye kan price for studio photography session nnt

it was quite cheap and most importantly dekat ngan my house so xpayah travel jauh2

the price given was rp150k for 10 shoots and 5 best pics will be printed out for us(size besar)

last time ms jalan2 kat CL with sarah, there was this booth yg promotes their photography skills for weddings and pre-weddings. but i asked for graduation photos. and the guy there explained to me that the cheapest graduation package is rp280k for 3 pictures in an elegant album. but the picture is actually for 5-6 people only and if tambah sorng lagi(as our family consist of 7people termasuk lil' a'an) kene add up another rp100/person??**sbb nak kawal face expression masa picture taking akn jd bertambah susah sbb bertmbah org?? waterparkk??**

mahal gile la kan jadinye? da la diorng nye studio jauh nun di jakarta utara(i am in jakarta barat)

so it's obvious la kan which package that i will take?

skarang yg belum settle adelah rental car yg nak guna for jenjalan to bandung

nak the best(read:cheapest) price la kan as mak da berabes bnyak utk belikan flight tickets for the whole family dtg jakarta so kne la cut off bnyak2 skit belanja kat sini.. huhu~

ok dah la

nak menikmati cuti dgn hati yg tenang!

.::. a'an ckp die nak datang jakarta naik helikopter! hahaha~ hilarious!!

.::. sape nak join jenjalan jakarta? jom la!

dulu salu pikir nape org happy smpai menangis...

dearlifeylife....

seriously,

pg td i was like so ready nak kene repeat osce(of course i didnt want it but... gtulah.. huhu~)

anyhow, sampai campus around 10++, result lom kuar, join dok kat kawan2 sambil borak2

few minutes later, dgr derap kasut para dosen turun dr meeting osce diorng

dada da berdebar2, berdetak2 kencang macam nak copot da jantung

then bile the result ditempek kat white board depan ruang KKD tu, sume pakat2 gi serbu

i have to admit i adelah termasuk lam kategori manusia AGAK ketot! ngan ketinggian 159cm, i tak mampu nak nampak result tu dr jarak 5lapis manusia dengan ketinggian around 10cm lebih dr i!

ms tu i kat bagian nama2 org yg akan repeat esok n lusa

spek tak bawak! so nampak blur2 je.. tp rasenye nama i takde!! ah i berputus asa!

maka lari kat senarai nama semua student yg amik osce kali ni with either 'LULUS' or 'TIDAK LULUS' di belakang nama setiap org

HAWA FATIHAH! mana HAWA FATIHAH CHE MAT SU?! ahha! dah jumpe! and instead of 2patah perkataan kat blakang nama i, cuma ade satu je??!! i was like......... sprahclos!

alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah... subhanallah... perkataan tu je yg terngiang2 kat kepala i....

persekitaran haru biru, satu sudut, org yg kene repeat dok termenung, ade yg peluk2 sambil nangis2. nak bayar rp350,000 utk repeat bukan lah sedikit... sngat bnyak! mmg sngat2 bnyak...

i carik sudut yg paling sunyi.. nak call mak! number dialed... after few ringings, mak angkat, oh, belah sana pun haru biru gak.... mak ckp die ade kat bilik audit tgh audit ape ntah...

"maak! awa da lulus...."

dgn nada kalut and energetic nye mak jawab "ape??? tak dengar!"

ah potong stim tol! "awa da lulus mak ujian tu!!"

"what? oh!! alhamdulillaaaahhhh", suara mak separuh menjerit...

lalu tumpah lah genangan air mata perkasa yg dr td cuba dipertahan kan sejak dr awal2 tgok result...

"awa da jd dokter mak! awa da jd dokter!!".. ah exaggerate! belom lagi snarnye! but 3/4 way tru, haha~

"alhamdulillahhh...", i know i made my mom happy today!

"jgn lupe telefon abah...", "ye mak"

the call ended...

then call abah.. then call KHAR..

well.. begitu lah kejadian pagi tadi. now tunggu 10/4, then i will receive my degree and later be called an S.Ked(sarjana Kedokteran). got the degree tp belum dpt the licence utk practice... yay!

sometimes, certain things, i really thought i dont deserve it all, but Allah Maha Pemurah.. and He gave me everything no matter what... alhamdulillah....