a billion, trillion, zillion, jillion, gazillion and umptillion

dear lifeylife....

i might not have a billion, trillion, zillion, jillion, gazillion and umptillion of money to give to u...

i have none...

i cant give u any of that

but all i can give to u is a pack of fresh red blood cells from my own vein

it might cost more than all the money that u can think of

it might cost u a life

a second chance to breath the air

another opportunity to fight for a living

another reason to be thankful to Good Almighty Allah

use it well my dear...

use it well...

=)

tick tock tick tock...

dear lifeylife.....

one day

exhausted

post oncall

in a bus

on the way back from the hospital

desperately trying to keep the eyes wide open

saw a woman and her little girl

may be 6 or 7 years old

she kissed her child's hair

trying to inhale all the innocent-ness of her princess very deeply into her lung

and the little girl looked up to her mommy and smile

the sweetest smile ever

and my tummy churn...

oh dear biological clock

please tick a little less fast

planet earth turns slowly...

dear lifeylife.....

"I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems"

oh alangkah bestnye if masih bercuti

esok da kene keje

and lebih hebat lagi may be kene trus oncall

wow!

hebat!

syuh3~

g tdo sana!

.::. itu lirik lagu Fireflies.. saye suke!

juliana da kawin???!!

dear lifeylife....

berdentum2 dengar fire works kat luar

esok da 2011

wow?

smlm br smpai jakarta setelah bercuti lama kt mlysia terchenta

barang still bersepah

meh la tolong kemaskan!

oh juliana dah kawin?

oh juliana?

betul ke ni?

perempuan bersuara nyaring tersebut da kawin?

kawin?

betul ke?

ok da stop2

confirmed beliau da kawin ok!

beliau da matang!

walau suara still nyaring

tp beliau da matang!

xmenyesal amik cuti kali ni!

sbb juliana kawin!

walaupun akhirnye kene postponed pertunangan snirik

sbb no more cuti for me

tapi xpe!

sbb juliana kawin!

oh juliana!

please be happy dear...

coz we love u so much!

so so sooo much!

i cant even type a word bout the wed without feeling a pool of tears waiting to meleleh2 keluar

so xmo lah type

u guys baca this one from ila's blog k?

dear 2011

please be nice to me

bring me love and luck

and happiness and health

not to forget

please bring me Allah's blessing and barokah

.::. langit jakarta cerah dgn pancaran bunga api...

dear lifeylife....

oh seronoknye bercuti di rumah!

esok nak ke perak

ade family day atok md lajis(atok belah mak)

maleh nyee laa nak mengupdate buat masa ni

hehe~

sindrom home malaise~

tc people!

mixed feelings

dear lifeylife....

lapar!

a nordsee's sushi box will do

a plate of tasteless rice eaten with kebab is okey

sweet fish and crispy chips with green beans will satisfy my need

my sweet tooth needs the sugar rush

oh just gimmi the waffle with vanilla ice cream and caramel sauce

or a slice a baklava will make me a happy gal

then i realize how lonely i am

lonely and hungry....

might end up with gastritis tomorrow

during my oncall day

perfect!

just simply perfect!

of smiles and frowns..

dear lifeylife.....

putting my both hands into a patient's tummy during a laparotomy is sooooo cooolll

sooo soooo coool!

holding the slimy colon from the inside of tummy is cooler

and when my consultant asked me to hold the warm liver, i felt like i might pingsan with excitement

closing up the laparotomy on my own while my consultant did the colostomy is superfragilicious

however

feeling that the cancer has literally closed up the rectum and climbing up to the colon is bad

holding the warm liver but realize that the cancer has mestastasized from the rectum and now is eating up the liver is far worst

but closing up without doing nothing but the colostomy because the cancer has literally taking over the body and there's nothing we could do to stop it is devastating

sometimes, some things are just meant to be....