kultum(kuliah tujuh minit)

dear lifeylife...

td selepas solat isya sementara tunggu nak solat tarawikh, imam tu ade kasi kuliah 7minit(dont ask me why '7 minit' coz i oso dont know=))

he said, manusia makhluk berakal, oleh itu manusia ade lupa.

if tgh solat and tiba2 kita lupa kita berada di rakaat ke berapa, maka ambil lah rakaat yang terkecil

which means, if kita tak sure either rakaat 3 or 4, so teruskan lah solat seperti kita dalam rakaat 3, dan pada tahiyat terakhir, lakukan lah sujud sahwi....

hal yang diterangkan tadi dilakukan pada solat yang telah ditetapkan rakaatnya contohnya solat fardhu. kalau solat yang tidak ditetapkan rakaat nya, contohnya solat tarawikh, tak perlu lah nak tambah rakaat lagi, so boleh solat seperti biasa sahaja. if nak tambah rakaat pun boleh sebagai penyempurna solat.

wallahualam...

.::. i mmg tatau pasal mende ni so im very happy that he talked about it=)

a billion, trillion, zillion, jillion, gazillion and umptillion

dear lifeylife....

i might not have a billion, trillion, zillion, jillion, gazillion and umptillion of money to give to u...

i have none...

i cant give u any of that

but all i can give to u is a pack of fresh red blood cells from my own vein

it might cost more than all the money that u can think of

it might cost u a life

a second chance to breath the air

another opportunity to fight for a living

another reason to be thankful to Good Almighty Allah

use it well my dear...

use it well...

=)

sleep baby sleep...

dear lifeylife...

xsempat pape, sedar2 da nak dekat raya..

hayoooo...

sibuk putting people to sleep bfore the surgeries..

being an anesthesiologist is rather cool but full of risk

i enjoyed it very much tho

walaupun oncall kadang tu selang sehari selama seminggu stright dan asek kene melepek kat icu yg bnyak nyamuk tu

saye tetap gumbire

kate mak, "ikhlas bantu org susah"

baik mak!!

semalam mase oncall, ade surgery cito

mule2 katenye suspect acute appendisitis pada a 3months pregnant woman

rupe2nye bukan acute appendisitis namun ectopic pregnancy pada the mommy's right fallopian tube...

everything went well

we put her under regional anesthetic tru subarachnoid space injection in between lumbal 4 and lumbal 5...

everything went well... very well indeed...

pastu dr samad(the operator) keluarkan that lil' fella!

the foetus was more or less 8cm long..

he was still moving! i saw his legs kicking!

and i saw his chest pumping...

then he stopped n never move again...

then akhirnye when the surgery ended

we took the mother to the recovery room

she asked for her foetus

the dad da amik da the foetus

he even took a picture of it before we put it into a container and give it to the family..

then we asked her whether she wants to see the picture of it

then die geleng at the same time air mata die menitis

aduh.. sedih nyee..

this is that lil' strong fella. we took a picture of it because it's very rare utk dpt keluarkan foetus secara whole mcm ni

it's an amazing experience for me...

dont worry baby.. be strong...

u'll be playing the the heaven in no time

wait for ur mommy there ok baby?

ok nak g nanges skarang!

babai!

ps: yaAllah, jauhkan lah dari hal2 sedemikian terjadi kepadaku, keluargaku dan teman2ku... amin...

tentang ibu!

dear lifeylife...

after Allah and Rasulullah,

who's next?

your mother, your mother, your mother!!!

then later comes your father...

say Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah...

thank you Allah for my mother....

.::. harini Dr Matta, kehilangan ibunya, Dr Mieke... komplikasi DM.. innalillah... she was a great teacher...

.::. harini, mendampingi seorang ibu muda di IGD menangis2 tgok anak die demam and kejang...

.::. harini, jeles ngan Nor Ilani yang sedang bercuti di rumah dgn ma nye!

.::. harini, rindu mak.. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for my emak...

semalaman di IGD...

dear lifeylife....

tempat: IGD@Instalasi Gawat Darurat@Emergency Room

waktu/tarikh: 1-2am/27 april 2010

kejadian: a patient, Mr D, umur 25 tahun, dtg sbb terkepit kaki ms berkerja kat pelabuhan.. jari tengah kaki kiri da totally putus hanya lekat di kulit sahaja.. hantar x-ray, sah2 xdpt diselamatkan. kne buang. tgh mencuba menutup luka2 Mr D, terdengar suara Mrs M melolong2 menangis... owh, Adik R yg meningitis tu da meninggal.. last i sdiri check temperature Adik R malam td mmg tinggi.. 41.9 degree... then siap adik R seizure depan i lagi... uh.. tangisan Mrs M sngat menyedihkan! sambung menjahit kaki Mr D... tb2 IGD heboh! ade patient dr ward di lantai 8 baru lompat dan membunuh diri! mungkin mayat akan dibawa ke IGD!! wow! menarik! tunggu punya tunggu... xjadi! mayat trus dibawa ke kamar jenazah..

tempat: masih di IGD

waktu: 4++am

kejadian: IGD da quite lengang... melepak2 kat kaunter. kaki i da mmbengkak. mata da layu badan da sakit2 and kepenatan. masih cuba bertahan. datang 2org perempuan dan sorng lelaki ke kaunter dan lantas bertanya....

perempuan A: doc, Adik R yang tadi di sini, di mana ya?

nurse: owh sudah di kamar jenazah...

(muka perempuan A terkejut gila dan trus bertukar pucat)

perempuan A: loh??? kenapa???

(nurse mula serba salah)

nurse: eeerrr... udah meninggal...

(dan perempuan A pun jatuh terjelepuk di lantai di tengah2 IGD dan melolong2 menangis)

perempuan A: anakkuuuuu!!! anakkuuuuu!! ga mungkiiiiinnnn!!!

mungkin die balik utk rest kejap kot sbb muka die mcm baru bgn tdo... kesian die... takde mase anak die meninggal. sedih!

.::. belajarlah menyayangi ape je yg anda miliki skrng. org yg tersayang, anggota tubuh mahupun nyawa sbb kita tak tahu bile mendetu akn hilang dr kita...

sile jgn bace post ni sambil makan...

dear lifeylife....

hari ni bergotong royong mencuci ulcus diabeticum/diabetic foot ulcers yang sngat WOW baunye kat ward Tim A(kat ward Tim B-C plak, ade patient yg kaki dia kene ulcus diabeticum gak and da xdpt nak diselamatkan so terpaksa la di amputate... kasihan...)

bertabah bertabah bertabah menyeka peluh sambil mengontrol pernafasan snirik

takkan la termuntah depan patient kan?

kesian la die kankankan???

ini lah dia

(gambar diambil utk tujuan case presentation later)

di ward Tim A juga, sorang patient mengidap Systemic Lupus Erythematosus(kalo rajin nak belajar sile click sini)

keadaan da sngat teruk. da melepuh2 dan lebam2 di kulit di seluruh badan... and td sebelum shift i abis, die sesak2 nafas, coz darah tak cukup dan die takde darah yg sesuai kat bank darah... temperature badan dia pun naik and die da sgt lemah.. donno wat else to do. sebelum balik, i just sempat squeezed her mom's shoulder and pesan suh the patient control her breathing(da kasik kanul oksigen)...

i wish isnin nnt die still ade di situ...

she's only 20

and ade anak sorang

very sweet 1 year old baby girl

sigh...

ps: hari jumaat lepas, anak die dtg melawat. sblm anak die dibawak balik oleh abg si patient, patient tu pesan kat anak die, "jgn cengeng ya, anak mama?(jgn kuat nangis ye anak mama?)", pastu the lil' girl cium bibir mama die.. ish sebak!

ironis

dear lifeylife....

suatu masa dulu, mereka memanggil kita Malingsia. maling dalam bahasa indonesia bererti pencuri... kerana kononnya kita mencuri tarian reog mereka, batik mereka, wayang kulit mereka, ambalat mereka dan macam2 lagi...

kini, mereka memanggil diri mereka sendiri sebagai Republik Maling. maling masih bererti pencuri. kerana, pemimpin mereka melakukan korupsi besar2an, mencuri duit rakyat buat memenuhi poket mereka sendiri...

salahkah kita? bila kita mempunyai kebudayaan yang hampir serupa dengan mereka? salahkah kita, jika nenek moyang mereka, bermigrasi ke negara kita, membawa bersama kebudayaan mereka, berkahwin dengan orang kita, dan menurunkan kebudayaan mereka kepada anak cucu mereka yang kini merupakan warganegara kita? adekah kita mengklaim bahawa kebudayaan2 itu milik kita sahaja dan mereka langsung tidak berhak? rasanya tidak! kita cuma menghargai dan menghidupkan budaya nenek moyang kita... salahkah?

yang salah ialah korupsi! secara terang2an, mengambil duit rakyat! rakyat mereka yang memberi sepenuh kepercayaan kepada mereka untuk memajukan negara mereka. itu salah! salah apabila duit rakyat tersebut sepatutnya digunakan untuk membangun negara mereka, membantu rakyat mereka yang miskin yang berpeleseran di traffic light untuk meminta syiling rupiah yang tidak seberapa hanya untuk sesuap nasi, meningkatkan tingkat pendidikan mereka dan meningkatkan level kesihatan rakyat mereka. itu salah! bukan sahaja salah, itu zalim!

i rest my case...

BRIDGE... for a better education level..

dear lifeylife...

td tgok rancangan talk show Kick Andy kat TV

tentang BRIDGE, tentang teachers exchange and school partnerships between australia and indonesia. very interesting and inspiring! no wonder bahasa indonesia boleh dikatakan sngat dikenali di whole wide world.. selain memperkenalkan bahasa indonesia, mereka juga memperkenalkan kebudayaan indonesia kepada pelajar2 di australia. mereka juga cube menyerap cara dan persekitaran belajar-mengajar sekolah2 di australia ke indonesia. sangat menarik... bila malaysia nak buat program yg sama? for the best interest of our young students in malaysia..

.::. rindu zaman persekolahan....

The Blind Side

dear lifeylife....

watched "The Blind Side" for the 2nd time with sukma just now. very heart-warming story i tell u. sile la tgok sape yg belum tgok! well, talking bout doing charity and the good things for others mcm Leigh Ann did, the night before, on the way back from CL, with Sukma and Aya, us girls, talking bout a lot of things, and one of the topic that brought up was on how Sukma and i had this same dream on being a charity navigator. and gosh i was so happy to have someone that have the same 'angan-angan' like mine.

back in the days, when i was young, i mean as young as i can remember, five maybe six, it was hari raya i guess, coz i remember receiving so much duit raya from the adults. i was following my parents pergi beraya kot, it must be one of abah's bau2 bacang pnye relative, and she was very old, and the house was obviously not like mine, and the food she served for us was like almost nothing, and it was hari raya and she was, to my eyes, not wearing the supposedly baju raya and all lah. so i was so sedih. and when my mak and abah bid good byes and all, and called me to salam her, i hold my duit raya(not all of it la obviously) in my hand, and just salam that old lady, and gave her the money, and quickly ran to the car. back then, i really dont know what it was meant, but it just seems to be the right thing to do...

and just few years back, during the interview for the scholarship, the man who interviewed me, sit there and looked me right in the eyes and asked me, what do i want to do actually in my life, and for God Gracious' sake, i really dont know why, my eyes went blurry!! oh yeah people! i cried during my interview! as humiliating as it was to cry during the interview, i put myself in such a difficult situation to just explain to him that i wanted to make a change, to make a difference, to help the one in needs. sometimes, something are just too hard to be put into words and just meant to be kept inside aite?

berbalik kepada what sukma and i were talking bout in the taxi, we were like, 'owh, kite kan ramai kawan2 doctors sume kan, we can just simply recruit them on helping out a little bit here and there kan?', well the truth is, kawan2 kite sume, ade engineers, ade pilots, ade doctors, ade architects, ade accountants, and mcm2 lagi jenis career yg we all know that eventually we will all live dengan kecukupan, even kelebihan. and giving out a little bit wont hurt kankankan?

so ayuh lah kawan2, kite bersama2 tanamkan semangat untuk memberi!

Hanya Allah...

dear lifeylife....

mnggu lepas starting isnin, kanak2 skolah menengah kat sini kelam kabut berexam Ujian Nasional

tu lebih kurang sama ngan SPM kita.

and hari sebelum tu, kat TV, they were showing persediaan kanak2 skolah tu utk menghadapi their big important exam

hal2 yang biasa kite buat masa SPM dulu seperti study group, stay up, solat hajat and for the hindus, g candi utk doa kat diorng nye god, and macam2 lagi la.

what caught my eyes baru2 ni, bila masuk lam berita, kanak2 skolah ni membanjiri makam Gus Dur utk 'berdoa' because it's a 'makam penuh berkah'???? and ade yg berpusu2 tolak menolak utk minum air suci yg dibaca oleh ntah sape ntah? Astaghfirullahaladzim. kenapa la kene amalkan hal2 syirik mcm tu?? siap masuk tv bagai ag. arent they ashamed of themselves? aneh la manusia ni....

here in indonesia, hal2 aneh mmg slalu diorng amalkan.

before this, pernah ade dalam tv, sorang anak kecik named Ponari, umo 7 tahun kot, kene sambar petir ke ape ntah, then after that, a stone(batu) followed him home, and akhirnye tb2 berpusu2 manusia(we are talking bout thousands of people) membanjiri kawasan rumah dat boy untuk disembuhkan penyakit. and let me tell u how they did it, the people yg datang to his house, berpusu2 menghampiri Ponari with a container of water, then Ponari will put his hand holding the stone into the container of water, and the water will be drank by those people, and it'll cure any diseases they have. how ridiculous is that? not to mention the stone itself is not clean and Ponari's hand also might not be cleaned as well. most importantly, how can a mere stone cure any disease?

call me a skeptical. but i just need Him. Allah yang Maha Esa..

read at you own risk!

dear lifeylife...

esok!

stage terakhir KKD

pejam celi pejam celik

after ni kami akn grad! oyeh2!

dan kemudiannye akn dilempar kan merata2 hospital utk jadi kuli kepade dokter

stage apekah yg terakhir?

lab! microbe, clinical pathology and lain2 yg selevel dgn nye

that means, we are going to play with several kotor2 stuff

that will include something to do with poopoo(read:feces)

ha! dont u ever start eeuuww-ing me now!

saya tahu ia kotor dan i am not looking forward to it!

tapi harus bagaimana lagi?

kalau xbelajar camne nak tahu

kalo tak tahu camne nak tolong org sakit

kalo bukan kami siapa lagi?

ini adelah fardhu kifayah kawan2!

ok! angkat tangan sape nak tgok gambar poopoo fresh from the lab!

ngagagaggagg!!(kutur kutur kutur!!)

psychiatry yang psycho!

dear lifeylife....

menarik nye mempunyai penyakit Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

pastu bace buku Nelson Internal Medicine over and over and over and over and over again!

sampai hafal every single thing siap hafal page skali pastu leh menjadi doctor yg mantap!

oh tapi tak menarik sbb nnt sering merasakan tak puas hati sampai kene basuh tangan sampai 8juta kali but still rase tangan lom bersih!

baiklah

cik awa akan memasuki stage psychiatry next week

menarik mmg menarik

tp lecturers menakutkan

sile lah bertabah ye cik awa!

bye!

The Three Billy Goats Gruff...

dear lifeylife...

tibe2 teringat kat cerita yg satu ini

dulu mase kecik2, Uncle Ted salu pos kan buku2 cerita kanak2 for me(selain dr Lego, mainan blocks, cards, baju and macam2 lagi)...

and this cerita adelah one of it

The Tree Billy Goats Gruff....

and dulu when i was 4, 5 or 6 years old, mak salu baca kan cerita ni to me(dan juge cerita2 lain yg Uncle Ted hantar)

siap dgn sound effect and all

pk2 balik funny la pulak kan

but i loved it to bits!!

and tonight i am missing it...

why? entah la... i dont know. just let me be ok? hehe~

so here it is...

The Three Billy Goats Gruff!!

(not 100% sama, tp more or less 95% sama la dgn the book Uncle Ted gave)

The Three Billy Goats Gruff

Once upon a time there were three billy goats, who were to go up to the hillside to make themselves fat, and the name of all three was "Gruff."

On the way up was a bridge over a cascading stream they had to cross; and under the bridge lived a great ugly troll , with eyes as big as saucers, and a nose as long as a poker.

So first of all came the youngest Billy Goat Gruff to cross the bridge.

"Trip, trap, trip, trap! " went the bridge.

"Who's that tripping over my bridge?" roared the troll .

"Oh, it is only I, the tiniest Billy Goat Gruff , and I'm going up to the hillside to make myself fat," said the billy goat, with such a small voice.

"Now, I'm coming to gobble you up," said the troll.

"Oh, no! pray don't take me. I'm too little, that I am," said the billy goat. "Wait a bit till the second Billy Goat Gruff comes. He's much bigger."

"Well, be off with you," said the troll.

A little while after came the second Billy Goat Gruff to cross the bridge.

Trip, trap, trip, trap, trip, trap, went the bridge.

"Who's that tripping over my bridge?" roared the troll.

"Oh, it's the second Billy Goat Gruff , and I'm going up to the hillside to make myself fat," said the billy goat, who hadn't such a small voice.

"Now I'm coming to gobble you up," said the troll.

"Oh, no! Don't take me. Wait a little till the big Billy Goat Gruff comes. He's much bigger."

"Very well! Be off with you," said the troll.

But just then up came the big Billy Goat Gruff .

Trip, trap, trip, trap, trip, trap! went the bridge, for the billy goat was so heavy that the bridge creaked and groaned under him.

"Who's that tramping over my bridge?" roared the troll.

"It's I! The big Billy Goat Gruff ," said the billy goat, who had an ugly hoarse voice of his own.

"Now I 'm coming to gobble you up," roared the troll.

Well, come along! I've got two spears, And I'll poke your eyeballs out at your ears; I've got besides two curling-stones, And I'll crush you to bits, body and bones.

That was what the big billy goat said. And then he flew at the troll, and poked his eyes out with his horns, and crushed him to bits, body and bones, and tossed him out into the cascade, and after that he went up to the hillside. There the billy goats got so fat they were scarcely able to walk home again. And if the fat hasn't fallen off them, why, they're still fat; and so,

Snip, snap, snout. This tale's told out. this is the exact front page of the book Uncle Ted gave me!! saye sngat terharu!!!

::org tamak selalu rugi, bagai anjing dengan bayang-bayang::

::next cerite The Enormous Turnip plak.. hehe~::

why women cry so easily?

dear lifeylife...

life with its ups and downs

and i found myself cry helplessly despite my ego every now and then

it must be confusing for the one who always there to see my tears fall

and to hear me sob for the simplest reason ever

i understand coz i am confused myself...

but it feels so good when it is over, i really dont know how and why but it sure does give me comfort... :)

so here u go guys, something for u to ponder,

think about ur mom, ur sister, ur aunts, ur friends

and all those people who are granted with the XX chromosomes

sometimes it is just it.....

Why Women Cry Easily !

One day, a young boy asked his mom.
"Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm a woman" she told him.

"I dont understand," he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will, but that's okay."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mom seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason" was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry finally, he put in a call to God.

When God got back to him, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?''

God answered, "When I made women, I decided she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet her arms gentle nough to give comfort.

I gave her the inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times will come, even from her own children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going and take care of her family and friends, even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue, without complaining.

I gave her sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances even when her child has hurt her badly. She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears.

I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults, and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife but some times tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

For all of this hard work, I also gave her a tear to shed, It is her's to use whenever needed and is her only weakness."

"When you see her cry, tell her how much u love her and all she does for everyone. And even though she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good." "She is special!"

::talked to GOD on the phone? pfffttt.. mngarut! hahaha~::

never to give up life...

dear lifeylife....

as crappy as life could be, there must be someone out there worst than us,

it's not about to change everything into perfection

but to live the imperfect life perfectly

to love the imperfect people perfectly

and to survive an imperfect situation perfectly

never to give up coz that is the worst decision ever made on planet earth

::selamat eid adha semua::

D'Masiv - Jangan Menyerah

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cobaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi

Reff 1:
Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah anugerah
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Reff 2:
Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya
Bagi hambanya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal Putus asa

kawan2 jgn tak tdo b4 exam ok?

dear lifeylife....

yay! dah lepas surgery and pharmacy!!!

oyeh2!

semoga lulus dengan warna yg berterbangan

amin!

scalpel holder and blades

my minor set

okes,

2 weeks in surgery mmg sngat stressfull la

i dont know why

must be bcoz of the the lecturer doctor sorang tu yg muka masam cetung almost all the time

dah la almost setiap hari ade pre-test then followed by post-test sebelum test sebenar

hari test sebenar tu which was last wednesday, the night before, i hit the bed so late and terkebil2 tak bleh tido coz stress yg amat dgn surgery

i think i went to the lala land just right b4 subuh masuk kot

after subuh tu i thought lets rest at the lala land just for a little while more sbb sngat penat

n mase tu baru 5am and the exam willl start at 8am

so pk i had at least 2 hours more to let my brain rest

but God Gracious the next thing i know was i terbagun dgn terpinga2 caused by the in-calling call from my group mate asking me where was i and the lect were asking us in already!

it was almost 8.10am and i wasnt even had my morning bath yet!

masa tu, rasa nak koma dah! and the panic attack were worsening the situation..

the heart was running and pounding very hard, the stomach was getting very2 upset, the head was being dizzy and mula rasa terawang2, tangan dah started to be shaky and trembling, the palm started to sweat very heavily, the whole body terasa sejuk dingin.... ah it was not a very nice feeling i had! not nice at all! senang kata it was awful!

tp kemudian by the time i smpai kat campus, my group mate kata td die panggil just sbb nak undi turn exam and turn i adelah no.9 out of 10 group mates i sume tu...

and i gave out a very loooongg greatful sigh...

gosh takmo la jadi mcm tu! teruk2 sant teruk! takmo ag dah!

ok tunggu punya tunggu

smpai lah turn i

masuk, stright ke exam tindakan

biasa nye anamnesis and physical examination dulu

tp my other colleague was doing his anamnesis and physical examination with another lecturer doctor

me, cabut undi case dulu

oyeh! dapat needle thoracocentesis! kind of senang la actually so proceed la ngan amik alat2 nye sume and get ready

then the lecturer doctor came and told me to start the procedure

yada yada yada..... then tibe part anesthetic injection

tibe2 die tnye i how to kire dose die

deng! i really forgot how nak kira

i tau satu ampul yg i pakai tu ade lidocain 2% 2ml

and i mmg tau how to kira sume tu and even if die nak i dilute the lidocain tu pun i know how

but my pengiraan mmg jenis nak cepat so i really dont mind the details cara kira sume

n she wanted me to explain that of all other thing?! so ape ag, i sambung la panic attack i tu kat depan doctor plak!

hahahha~

it was funny pk2 balik, naseb dpt doctor yg baek ati n tolong ingatkan i! if dpt doktor yg tak berapa nak baek tu how? mau nages ek?

ok to make the long story short, maka berakhirlah surgery

then belum ilang penat n stress, trus masuk pharmacy(the next day of course)

fast-and-furious-pharmacy

hehe~

well takpe la

dah lepas sume tu

da lulus da pun surgery

just nak tunggu result pharmacy ajek lagi

**surgery adelah menarek! jom kite jadik Surgeon lah jom!!**

**tp bagaimana ngan cita2 nak Gyne??**

to celebrate berakhirnye surgery aritu, nining and i went to Roxy Sq to have lunch together and end up buying ourselves some CDs utk dinikmati pada hujung minggu yg sngat berharga tersebut...

i bought Grey's Anatomy season 5

lama gile da meninggalkan Grey's Anatomy ni

well as i remembered season yg lepas2, takde plak i nanges2 nengok cerita tersebut

tp this season? y o y? have i gone soft???

so macam mane nak jd surgeon ni kalo soft2 mcm ni? cannot oh cannot!

however, looking at a human being, talking to him and end up he, dying in ur hands(literally) and u cant do anything to help but to let him die easily and with less pain will never be easy! never going to be! am i dat strong to handle that???

Meredith Grey::

"Doctors live in a world of constant progress and forward motion. Stand still for a second, and you'll be left behind. But as hard as we try to move forward, as tempting as it is to never look back, the past always comes back to bite us in the ass. And as history shows us again and again, those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it."

asek takde letrik je! masak rendang ah jom!

dear lifeylife....

ah nak update blog juge walau besok ade final surgery!

konon nye nak meluahkan ketidak-puas-hatian yg melanda sbb lately jakarta selalu ade gangguan bekalan elektrik

oh siksa oh siksa gile sbb sini sngat panas and pengap la oh oh oh

xsanggup nak menanggung tetesan2 peluh yg dah macam gerimis mengundang tersebut

last time takde elektrik i made up my mind utk turun dapur memasak rendang daging+paru

teeeeeettt!!! wrong decision deng deng deng!! panas gile menyesal memulakan aktiviti memasak rendang smpai rs mcm nak mmbiarkan rendang hangit di kuali sahaja lagaknye

tp dgn kesungguhan dan kelaparan yg membuak2, kusiapkan juga rendang yg xseberapa sbb xde kerisik tu yg kemudiannye dimakan dgn instant roti canai(bwk dr mlysia terchenta) di balcony sbb tak sanggup masuk bilik panas gile!

setelah kejadian takde letrik smpai memasak rendang, ade plak kejadian takde letrik pagi buta kol 130am++ smpai xleh tdo sbb mcm dok dlm sauna hebatnye!!

pastu td ptg balik kelas kepanasan pun xde letrik lagi!

oh pakcik letrik indonesia, tolong lah repair watever kerosakan yg ade tersebut dgn segera!!

xmampu da ni oi!

ok sile belajar sekarang kang esok tergagap2 waktu memegang patients mau memakan penampor patients lak kang sbb tak reti wat Rectal Toucher tu nnt! ataupun xjumpe carik lubang mase nak wat Catheterization mau menetes2 peluh xpayah tunggu xde letrik la ye! bagaimana pula kalau tersalah sental mase wound toilet ataupun tersalah jahit mase wound suture??

bye!

au revoir~

thnx to aja!

dear lifeylife....

hari ini hari berblog belajar sedunia!

aduh bnyak nye nak kne cover

tiap2 hari exam best gile(ok i'm being sarcastic!)...

esok?: catheterization, benign prostatic hyperplasia, Ca prostat, gallstone(choleliths), urinary tract infection, dan termasuk tajuk2 yg da lepas2 malas da nak tules sbb terlalu bnyak! oyeh!!

ok sambung belajar!

bye!

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dear lifeylife.....

pasti ni kata2 lect dr kepada my friend tu

uh it's such a simple thing tp sngat deep

katanya:

"kamu tuh harus berterima kasih sama org2 miskin, krna mereka kamu bisa jadi dokter. smua pengalaman yg km dpt dari teori itu, dipraktekkan pada mereka. minta aja, 'pak, celananya d buka', langsung d buka. 'bu, pakaian nya d lepas', langsung d buka pakaiannya. lagi pula, km bisa MEMPRAKTEKKANNYA GRATIS LAGI"

so thnx semua sbb kasik saye belajar badan kalian...

terima kasih atas semua ilmu yg saye dpt dr badan kalian...

halal kan ilmu2 tu semua oke?

till then people

papai~

burung murai ke sparrow tu, bah?

dear lifeylife...

u people ingat tak iklan ni?

mesti ingat kan?

terharu kan tgok iklan ni???

terharu3~

wat about this one?

perasan tak persamaan jalan ceritanye?

prasan3~

haha~

i just wonder, is it merely a coincident or what?

watever it is, amik le moral values nye okeh?

sile sayang mak n abah kamu2 semua

no matter what happened okey people??

loads of love

papai~

.::. baiklah! i admit it my vision blurred with tears ms tgok both of the short muvies.. uhuukk~